Blue Tuesday

I am a bit blue today. I struggled with my yoga practice this morning. It's really interesting that overall I feel significantly better and my chronic pain is greatly improved, but I still struggle. My energy level is still low and I am still tired. It's improving by millimeters but at times this healing is tedious and wearing on my spirit.
I am eating well but am still heavy. I know that as my body heals and this excess weight decides to finally come off that will really help. I'm trying hard not to be whiney and feel sorry for myself and will take a moment to practice gratitude Today my humanity just feel a little frail.

Patti.

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Comment by Carolyn Patterson on January 27, 2010 at 7:21am: Dear Patti, You are not whiney! You are observant. I believe your conscious thoughts do bring change. I'm really proud of you for continuing with yoga. A lot of people I know (starting with my husband) would not/could not even think of going into a class where you feel "exposed" and clumsy or whatever. It is an excellent way to build balance and increase your metabolism too. I was just reading another blog from a woman who suffers from "big arms" -- and she looked around and noticed all the women in her family did too. There really is something to genetics! If other women in your family also struggle with weight/chronic pain, you need to accept that. I know that doesn't mean love it and do nothing about it. But again, keeping the vision of how you want to look and feel in the forefront will bring you there. Understanding why you're there in the first place can fill you with compassion for yourself. *Not* self-pity. :)

Comment by Patti Sawyer on January 26, 2010 at 1:38pm: Thanks girls, pity party officially over. May try yoga again this afternoon. Did not run to store and buy chocolate. Victory.

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Comment by Rachel Smith on January 26, 2010 at 12:49pm: I know exactly how it feels to pour your energy into the goal of losing weight; change your diet, exercise regularly, turn down every treat that crosses your path for months...only to have the visible results be very minor. I struggle with this myself every day. It's hard to stay on the path when you don't feel like you're actually accomplishing anything. Regardless of your weight loss goals, your pain improving is a major step!

Comment by Audris Wong on January 26, 2010 at 9:43am: Big hugs, Patti! Hang in there. You're not being whiney; acknowledging the struggle is part of healing too, I think.