Cookies are on the menu today…right?

Shit. I totally screwed up today. I was craving cookies and chocolate all day yesterday, but I held myself back. Then I had a dream last night that I got into my secret stash of junk food hidden above the refrigerator. And then I came home from the hospital today and my dream turned into a frightening reality. Oops. 17 cookies, 630 calories and 32.75 grams of fat later, I felt like crap. I am considering this mistake a learning experience, however. I’ve never taken much notice of how the food I eat makes me feel. Either I’m full, or I’m not. But today, I noticed that I was really disappointed. Not only in myself for giving in to my cravings, but also in the effect the food I ate had on me. The cookies did not satisfy my hunger at all, in fact, they didn’t even satisfy my craving for chocolate. I felt tired after pigging out, and proceeded to lie on the couch for the next four hours. The next time I’m dying for a bit of chocolate, I plan to either eat a small amount of a quality chocolate bar (i.e. Vosges, which is the best chocolate in the world) or have some chocolate almond milk. I’ve found a mere quarter cup of the milk does wonders for quelling my urge for sweets.

I’m back on track now, though. As I speak (write), I am choking down my chilled cucumber soup, which, incidentally, tastes MUCH better with a little bit of dill weed. I am planning on doing my lower body workout tonight, and possibly the ab exercises that I missed last night. But I really hate doing abs.

Below is everything I’ve eaten since Monday, so all my stalkers can keep up on my life. And by my stalkers, I mean my Mom. Actually she doesn’t even read this blog…

Monday:
Oatmeal with blueberries
Almonds
Turkey sandwich
Dried apricots
Chocolate almond milk x2
Homemade chicken and rice soup
1258 calories and 35 grams fat

Tuesday:
Oatmeal with blueberries
Potato bread with almond butter
Turkey sandwich
Grapes and tomatoes
Chocolate almond milk x2
Almonds and dried cranberries
Sweet potato with sea salt
1057 calories and 46.6 grams fat

Wednesday:
Granola with berries and almond milk
Turkey sandwich
Grapes and tomatoes
Almonds and cranberries
Olives
Grapefruit juice
Chocolate almond milk
858 calories and 31.5 grams fat

Thursday:
Energy smoothie
Salad with olive oil dressing
Chocolate almond milk
Cookies x infinity
Cucumber soup
1825 calories and 119.5 grams fat

Looking back at my menu from the past couple days, I’ve noticed that I’ve eaten way too little on Monday through Wednesday. According to my plan, I should be eating 1828 calories per day, but I haven’t even come close to that number, except today. I realize that I should be eating more, but I honestly am not that hungry. The oatmeal and cereal I ate in the morning kept me full until well past lunch time. Even at lunch, I forced myself to eat because I knew that I needed to. Any ideas as to how I can get some more healthy calories in? Something tasty. Like cookies! :)